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There is just so much in my head
ALL. THE. TIME.
I mean always.
I have way more creative sparks and wants than I could ever keep up with – you should see my To-Do List, it’s fucking ridiculous!
Partial amounts of what I want reaches you. And to boot – call me ethereal. I fall into the stereotype of being flighty, flaky, not organized, not – whatever you want to call it. I will admit it – I do come across that way. But it’s really not my truth.
The real story is I’m too intelligent, too organized, too caring, too thoughtful, too jazzed, and too damn busy.
It’s not that I’m incapable of accomplishing anything I start, shit, I hardly get to start enough of what I want to.
The LISTS!! OMG the lists I have!
Ideas. Ideas. Ideas!
… and then more ideas!
Energy. Time. Capability. Budget. Collaboration. Ability.
I need to sleep too.
I use a scheduling application for my email because Im one of those people who schedule when I want emails to be sent:
1) to stay on top of things I write them while I’m inspired and it’s fresh, and schedule them to send later, when they’re supposed go & 2) because often I’m replying to emails at an ungodly hour and I don’t want you to know it.
But I do sleep, I promise. I just don’t sleep in a fashion to others.
Mostly I manage – I jump. From list to idea to priority to what I want personally, and I circle back, start again.
I try. I do my best, and some days I get more done than other days. And you know what – that’s ok. Because there’s always tomorrow.
The good news is that with all these ideas, and thank god I keep the lists – every once in a while I reorganize and restructure them – and turn them into something else, and then that becomes ready.
Then they are the magic that reaches you.
They are exactly what needs to be heard -now.
I love how this works.
I’ve been this way all my life. It used to frustrate me, thinking I was deficient. But now I embrace my process, and I see the beauty of the creation that it is.
Things need to churn in my world.
It’s when things (ideas, moments, desires) don’t become fruitful that I address them. I ask – what’s really going on here? What is the hangup, really?
Some times I realize that it wasn’t a good idea, or, and I can let it go.
Most of the time it turns out to be something that I had an energetic block for.
Yes – when I say Energetic – I mean ENERGETIC – Spiritual – it involves my soul, who I really am, and what my soul really is all about. I have something to uncover at this point.
Call me weird, but This is when I really get excited.
I Love doing the work on myself. I love knowing that I am working towards being authentically me.
AND Because who I am is someone who loves to help you. And the more I learn, the more steps I take, the more I understand – the better I can help you in discovering what’s truly yours.
If there’s something that you want to accomplish, and are having trouble achieving it – take a moment and remind yourself that you are worth the investment.
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So apparently I’ve been redirected. Only, I’m lost.
This is not usual territory.
I don’t know how to navigate it. I don’t recognize anything. I don’t have a map. There’s no one working here, no one who can explain it to me. I am just wandering around.
I’m just trying different things.
I feel completely lost.
I mean, I’m not a stupid person.
I know how to do for myself, how to care for myself. I know how to succeed and do things in life and for myself. I mean, this is just …
I don’t see the point of it. I don’t see the end in sight. I don’t see.
I guess I have to trust.
I mean I know I chose to make this trip. But I don’t think it’s going the way I wanted it to.
What do I do?
So many emotions, so many things.
And I just, I just don’t know right now.
I have moments where I’m like, okay – I can do this. There are other people out here. They just don’t seem to be bothered by it all.
It’s perhaps entertainment for them?
I’m trying to find the entertainment in it, but I’m having a hard time.
Every time I think I’m making good decisions for myself, I go through a period where I feel lost, unsure, uncertain. Things become upended, and my mind likes to twist it all about. I ruminate. I question too much. I have difficulty letting go.
If only I could just relax. Then I would see how, feel how …
Relaxing into it will bring me exactly what I am hoping for.
It’s the confusion, the upending, the twisting that is blocking me. I’m getting in my own way.
I have no reason to. It’s not like I developed this strategy out of a circumstance and I’ve had to abide – or else. Hence the being lost.
Do you meditate? I’ve trained myself to meditate when I’m in these periods. Meditation brings about clarity, and provides some not before realized insight that comes in pretty handy all of a sudden.
Do you know if you’re open to receiving information?
Observing the way you respond or react to things, and what people have to say (including that voice inside your own head) is one way to know. But then what?
Perhaps some energy healing and clearing to move you in the right direction. Maybe a conversation with someone to ask the harder questions than you’re willing to explore. Maybe let go of some of that tension around what’s upending you – and calm on down! Walk into a group of people who share your agenda, and try on some new ways for doing something.
What have you tried? What’s worked? What hasn’t? Why? What was going on in your world when you tried it last time?
Just becasue something didn’t work before, doesn’t mean it won’t work now. That attempt was a catalyst, and whether you realize it or not – you changed because of it. It could just be that you weren’t ready last time, and you are more likely to be ready this time. Perhaps it wasn’t the right fit for that time, but now –
Where are you on feeling lost? On a scale of 1 – 5, how does being lost make you moody and unsettled?
Are you ready to try again?, to overcome feeling lost in your own skin and thoughts? Are you ready for change? Then have that conversation – with me. My mission is to help those struggling overcome that which is not necessary. Schedule an exploration call
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So I took this course where every day you clear something. Because I was feeling a bit stuck, and unmotivated.
We cycle, right. I mean we all do – our emotions. We have good days and bad, strong, and vulnerable, motivated types, and days where we just want to be blah.
Well I had too many blah days adding up, and I knew I had to find something, bring in a fresh set of eyes to help me figure out why I was feeling so blah. Life was mundane, and I wanted more.
I was planning on journaling through it anyway – and I am so glad that I did. It’s so much more than about clearing “stuff”. It really brought me in touch with reasons for why I do certain things. And you know me – I’m all about processing.
And processing – WOW! Why am I like this?
As a result I’ve become an observer to my own self – my habits and patterns in a way that I hadn’t before. I learned something I didn’t want to come to terms with, even though I had the hunch that I might have been doing it. I thought I was special, and not like everyone else. But I am just like everyone else – and I am living under the adoption of someone else’s fears.
I was walking my dog this morning – this is when things become most clear for me – fresh air, trees, a relaxing stroll – at other times the intended walk for fitness, and the compassion for this creature that I care for. My focus on the compassion towards my dog doesn’t feel like it fits in there, does it? But it does! Because I have to exhibit patience, restraint, leadership, and caution for him – I’m on a different level of doing than I do for myself. These little mundane tasks bring me back into perspective to why I do what I do for you.
At about 265 days in, and I began to ask the bigger questions, and they were highly personal. I mean that was my goal for taking the course, but I took note that I was in fact doing that. I began challenging myself.
Something that is in my father that I don’t agree with, is inside of me.
All the experts say that people are in your life to teach you, and to recognize that when you don’t like something about someone, that it’s actually something that you don’t like about yourself. It’s a mirror behavior.
I don’t feel like my father and I have much in common – we have different religious and political agendas, we have totally different ways of operating tasks. But we do have a similar sense of independence. And we (have) similar attitudes when it comes to why to get something done. And that last one – the attitude – I always used to think I liked that, that it bonded us. But this attitude as much as I enjoy it – it just doesn’t work for me anymore. It was creating friction, and I was genuinely confused as to how to approach this.
I don’t remember it being a source of friction before, why did it change? Because I changed. I grew. I developed. I shifted. My approach to life is from a new perspective. My stance and reason hold new positions. My father and I have different life experiences after all.
One would think that a new way for doing life, for improving life, and recognizing where it comes from should be easy to do – but I found it to be a bit hard. Yes, I struggled with it. Because in order to do so, I had to let my father inside me go, and I had to meet my self. I got to create who I really want to be. …This is not the same as figuring out what you want to be when you grow up.
Creating who you are to become is to be done gently, mindfully, strategically – because you’re wise now. You now understand what consequences means. You’ve felt failure, fear, and you built a wall around your heart for protection. Creating who you are to become means you become vulnerable – to the nth degree. It means you have to be creative, willing, and ready. You know you have to tear down those walls, only to build new ones. You teeter on creativity because you think you need a template. You learned those lessons – now you have to go through them again, but expect different outcomes. Because you can’t undo.
Back to processing – It was enough motivation for me to realize that my attitude wasn’t mine – for me to want to change it. I like to be responsible. I like to say I’m authentic. I want to speak from my heart – not anyone else’s. And that means this part of me was calling to be healed, and I opened myself up to my purpose.
Purpose! That’s another one. Purpose isn’t about a career change, or job, or title – it’s about why we’re here. It’s about teaching the unconditional language of LOVE. It’s about unity, and harmony.
And to love others, you must first love yourself. And this is a process.
So me honoring my true self, discovering, creating who I really am and who I want to be in life, so that I can do in life. And you can too.
Just do it. Nope. It doesn’t work that way. There are layers to sift through. Tools are needed to cut through the stains (wounds). Relationships change as you shift, and others don’t make the cut. There’s constant adjustment happening. You’re always learning. You’re always adapting. The key is to keep strategizing.
How exciting is that?! To allow the innocence to lead you. That’s the part I’m excited about – the changing. I’m stepping into my innocence. Because at too young an age I was told to instead step forth with fear. And I have been imprisoned ever since. My attitude was to go in strong, and demand my presence. To be a force. To make sure everyone knew what I needed.
So many people take me for being a strong woman. And really, I do still agree – I am strong, because I did overcome – a lot. But I want more peace in my life now. I no longer want to always have to be up against the resistance. My energy has always flowed out, and I’m growing tired. Like everyone I have a self-care practice, but it’s more than that. My true self is a peaceful woman. She’s ready to face whatever, because of her wisdom. She can do so with grace because she’s had lessons. People emulate her because she has the where-with-all. It isn’t really strong when it comes from fear. Now, I feel, it is stronger to approach from Love. And that’s almost uncommon. It’s not what we see on TV. It’s not in the streets. Fear creates drive. But Love is a driver. Love is a force much easier to receive with, once you learn how easy it feels. It’s easier to give with Love, if only you’re brave enough to really try it, step into it.